So after my damn near 3-month hiatus against my will I'm finally back I'm your sweet generous always kind genuine girl who knows how to make you feel like the only person in the world when you and I talk but anyways enough with the charm so after my first mishap which was with the car crash I somehow still survived lucky but after being admitted to the hospital there for a few days and then being released something wasn't right apparently I had torn several ligaments in my sternum pretty much holding it all together and yeah I was in pain for about a good God I think almost a month probably longer I couldn't move it would hurt I couldn't blink it would hurt and if I sneezed yeah it would hurt and I've had many sneezes just tease me put me on the edge of I'm going to be in major pain and then when I least expect it and then I sneeze so it wasn't an enjoyable at least month and a half wait there's more so God forbid I know when I was getting over there I was like Yay okay I think I'm ready no no guess what I'm just going to say and trying to remain as less graphic and as PG as possible I was backed up like a bear waking up from hibernation it was not happening